KATIE MERTZ is co-curator of the BIG BIG MESS reading series. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in jubilat, Sixth Finch, Tinderbox, Poor Claudia & others. Her first chapbook is forthcoming in 2016. She lives in Akron, Ohio.

BLOOD MOON, SUMMER 2015

for NJR

a little bit in love
and I am beating
myself like a last meal
wearing worry on the skin
and bruised all over what if
I didn’t what if I did he wonders
with his whole face and it is
a great flourish magnet
in the hand I throw away
too like these clouds over
everything and I can’t wait
here I am under this sky
dancing and he doesn’t see
they take my X-ray in a big tube
and I wind through arms crossed
hoping for a reason I won’t stop
feeling like this like a big
breeze inside and I am not
and I am too much
at this window looking out
starving myself in small ways
everyday feel like the wrong
body someone needs to love
better where is that fucking
moon I can’t remember a face
so open a sky so full just him
and he is holding my hand
and I am when
the clouds part who

KATIE MERTZ is co-curator of the BIG BIG MESS reading series. Her work has appeared or is forthcoming in jubilat, Sixth Finch, Tinderbox, Poor Claudia & others. Her first chapbook is forthcoming in 2016. She lives in Akron, Ohio.